NEW SONG THAT IM IN LOVE WITH...... TODAY.

KILL THE LIGHTS BY
KITTEN :)

HAPPY AND MERRY

So why can't you say happy christmas? Well, you can. DO IT.



Listen up "Merry"....... you'd better watch your back. Happy will come after you. And you children.

Living in a Library!

Ok, so I made a new Tumblr, cuz my old one crashed and burned. literally. Ok, not literally. :)
But if you like me, you'll read this blog. It's basically pictures and words. Like this one, I can't really describe it!
Here is the URL.
right here,
right now,
click on it,
or if you can't
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livinginalibrary.tumblr.com

Coming to You LIVE....... From........ school.....

Yup that's right, I'm in school. I have peer counsuling, which translates into, do nothing, with acess to the internet class. My friends are all gone accpet one, who is on her blog too (quite a quinkydink, huh?)
HANG ON A SEC, im gonna go make a tumblr :)

Too Cute. Seriously.

5 Things I Like (NOT IN A GOOD WAY)

Well, Red Sunshine (P.W.D., really good blog) tagged me just for reading her post (darn you.) so now i have to write 5 things i like, but believe me, it's not in a good way.

1. Writers block. I write basically anything, poems, short stories, novels, my little notebook of questions about the world and beyond, blah blah blah. None of them are published of coarse because im not good, i just looooove to write. When i think of a REALLY GOOD STORY (in my mind) and then i can't think of anything else, it kills me. And then, i don't write for like 5 months, always thinking about what will work in my story, until i loose my mind. That train has been out of the station for years now, people. DEAL WITH IT.
2. When it's amazingly cold outside and i have an obligation somewhere inside. I mean c'mon people, i live in FLORIDA! It never gets cold here! And now, when it is, you expect me to stay inside? good luck with that buddy....
3. When people are really rude and ungrateful during the holiday season. The holiday's are a time for forgiveness! And (in October) scary people dressing up as even scarier people and raiding your houses for candy! But seriously, that really gets my goat. Let's say a certain person asked you to save a seat for them. You don't want to upset them, so of COURSE you say "Yes!" but then another person comes along and plops themselves right down next to you, and refuses to get up, and when you told them you were trying to save a seat for ------- they say "WELL BOO-HO. WHY DO I CARE ABOUT-------?"
4. When other people don't take the time to get to know you. And I can relate to this, because uh, STORY OF MY LIFE. Im weird, Im unique, im crazy!But people only see me as someone who isn't like them, and they judge me because of it. Meanwhile,I might just be their soul mate. But what would they know? Nada. Zip. Zilch. Because they don't want to take the time out of their wonderful lives, just to find out e like the same music, books, and studies.
5. Uhg, I just thought of something while writing #4 but now i forgot.
Darn.
OHWAIT!
Ok, so this isn't really something that would normally make me upset, but i feel like venting. So my friend who I have known since like KINDERGARTEN, forgot my birthday. (Im at the point in my life where everyone at school gives you balloons. I love balloons.) But, when it was her birthday, I wasn't there so I couldn't give he/him a balloon, but i did get her/him what she/he really really really wanted. Now it's MY birthday and she/he is there, and she forgot. She/he says,"OH MY GOSH! Ok, i know it's your birthday but I'll give you your present this weekend!" So I wait happily until the weekend. Two months LATER, i still hadn't gotten a thing. Not even a call from him/her. I have one class with him/her, and i always Say hi, but she never seems to remember it. I go over to her/his house one day, and i see a fish. I remember her telling me that she was going to get me a fish for my birthday. There. iT. iS. I don't say anything, hoping that she/he will remember, but he/she doesn't. Now, a couple weeks later, it's her/his and my friends birthday, I didn't know so I didn't get her anything, but it's not like we are besssst friends either,and i gave her half of my kit-kat bar. And who got her a customary balloon? Yup. And she has only known her for like, LESS YEARS THAN SHE HAS KNOW ME. (Sigh) maybe im just a selfish person.

Music Music.

Music Music
Is my life,
Your words cut throught me
Like a butter Knife.

You cheer me up,
when i am down,
You make me wonder
Why I frown.

Because Music music,
What would i do,
If i had not known
About you?

Wow. Three Posts in like... 5 Minutes?

NEW RECORD!

You Remember?

Well in my last post I said something about falling in love. Yeah, whatev. I don't need someone else. I need me, myself, and I. I can take care of my-self. Sometimes. Ok, scratch that, it's a total lie ;) BUT. I would like someone who acts like this.....
" I am a lovesick gentleman
Who pines and pines over the smallest things
Most of them are truly inconsequential
They are inconsequential things

So I'll write you the longest letter
Describing my feelings and all these stupid things
I'll cross my fingers that your heart melts
And you look at me and tell me "Darling, where have you been?"

But I'm just a heartbroke gentleman
And gentlemen never seem to get gentle women
I need a small town girl
To follow me home and teach me how to be a real man

I am a gentleman
An old school gentleman
A hold-the-door-for-you gentleman
A no good gentleman
A stupid, boring gentleman
A dumbstruck gentleman
A gentle, gentle, gentleman"
-Gentleman- Said the Whale

Yeah, I really like that song.

Hm... Contemplating life.

I realized I haven't posted in a while. So, weather you like it or not, HERE I AM WORLD!
I recently realized somethig about myself.
There is nothing, in the world that can make me change who i am.
I am a dreamer. I. Never. Stop. Dreaming.
Like im not kidding.
This is me in school...." Hm, I wonder if (insert name here) really DOES like me, and wouldn't it be great if he like the same stuff as i did, and on our first date, we would go star-gazing, and then he would buy me ice cream?"
This is me in the car...." How amazing would it be if i had wings? i could save the world from bad guys and water pollution. I wish I had wings."
This is me at home...." School is lame. We shouldn't have school on cold days. I think i should run away from this life, find anther one, live adventourously."
But there is one problem about my many dreams- they all lead to on thing.
Me living another life, not the one that i have now. One where im super pretty, one where i live in another planet, one where i have super-natural powers, but in my dream, they are totally normal. I hate living the life im living. It goes nowhere, I do nothing. I want to face death at ever corner, fight monsters, fall in love. Why can't do that? Is it like that for everyone? I wonder, is this how the rest of my life is going to be? Waiting, wishing, dreaming?